my lamentation

my lamentation

There are times when I feel like I want to drown in the abyss of surliness.
When everything seem so dead,
I come out alive, though
Never vibrant enough to conceal the truth from a silhouette of lies

‘Somewhere, across the seven seas
Awaits a promise of Utopia’
So I’ve been told
Of a slander so ancient, so old

When my weary soul lies upon a cloud
I could hear the beat of heartbreaks aloud
As I close my eyes, I hear mine
Yearning, reminiscing a time
A time of euphoria
A time of endless reveries
A time of acquiescence
A time of sworn reverence
Yet a time of profound hurt
A time of sordid memories
A time of silently raging tears
A time of resurgence of fears

I dreamed a dream too long
I fell far too deep
I seethed too soon
I conferred too much
And here I am for this moment
Too weary
Too resilient

At times, I wish to deny my existence
To desire to hear the murmur of the zephyr
For one final moment

I know such tenderness
I know such frailty
I know such right
I know such wrong
I know, I shouldn’t be here
I shouldn’t be like this
But I’ve never been so sure
And I know I might never be
So here I stand and say



I’m ready to face the sun again
I swear to my dying day
I loved you once
I LOVE YOU STILL
& TILL THE END,
I WILL